NEWSFLASH

2007-11-06T21:39:00.000+08:00

Hello I've shifted! (:
Bye bye Blogspot!

Click.

2007-11-01T18:24:00.001+08:00

Sushi and me (:

Date me please,
I are so borrreeddddddddd at home.

I've been online for like 3 days for so many darn hours I could be a new computer part or something. Facebooking, playing the most ridiculous online games and listening to my Anberlin/Mae/Dave Matthews Band playlist over and over. Day after day after day. Thank God it's Friday. Weekends are here, I can go out and play!

Vanessa Lim Vmay, if you're reading this, I'm expecting a decent nickgoh-less entry from you!

2007-10-31T16:47:00.000+08:00

cause intent never makes a sound.

Sushi is superduper cute and I swear I'm gonna kidnap her and bring her home one day when Martin's distracted (with food).

Yeapp, Sushi's Martin's dog's name.
Cute/weird name for a dog, I know.

Today feels weird cause I'm rotting at home. Had tonnes of fun hanging out with the MIGS (ie Martin, Ian, Gus, Shafiq), Deb, Rach and Cheyenne the past two days. Watched Lust, Caution and I could tell the guys were disappointed that the XXX scenes were censored so much they might as well not be shown.

I cannot stand how I cannot stand unhappy endings. It's annoying how I always, always look forward to idealistic endings. The ending of Lust, Caution left me so.. unsettled.

Gaaaah.

2007-10-28T23:07:00.001+08:00

all the love in the world.

Hello I had so much fun at the chalet, I super miss first 3 months!

Nick, esp! My fellow orange ranger, I wished, wished, wished you had stayed in SA. Man I miss having you around the most.

Anyway, photos!
There's just too many and I'm to lazy to post them up.
So the best 4, IMO (:

AGAIN PLEASE!

I had so much fun with you guys, I wished it would never end.

cause i don't need boxes lined in lace,
when all i want is to touch your face.

2007-10-23T20:40:00.000+08:00

Relentless.
Blogging.

I ARE GOING!
:D

I hope we get to play more UNO tomorrow cause I feel like winning! Jonadab is going down, I tell you. If not I'll just pick on someone, anyone I can beat. Oh I am so competitive!

I am listening to Alicia Keys now and it is so hard to sing along.
So I'm lip-syncing to ensure I don't go deaf hearing myself croak to her crooning.

you could be the one for me.

2007-10-23T15:46:00.000+08:00

A LOT LIKE LOVE.

I just watched it, and I love it even though it's not very good. I'm such a sucker for this kinda romance movies, I know =(

Hello I wanna go to the chalet on thurs but I got no balls to ask my parents.

Okay I'll ask tonight.

Chalet + Favourite People = DA BOMB MANZXZX.
Wish me luck.

2007-10-22T23:16:00.000+08:00

GIMME GIMME MORE,
GIMME GIMME MOOOOOORE.

Hello.
Hello.
Hi.

UNO Showdown in the cafe to kill time cause today was just SIANZXZXZX to the max. We played so many rounds cause it was
1. so addictive and
2. I wanted to play til I won.

And I kept losing so I guess we just went on and on cause I kept insisting that I would win the next round.
Or the next.
Or the next next.

You get the idea.

We had no lessons, no lessons at all.
It was horrible, but thank God for great company and malay food! (:

Anyhoos, the harmonizing trio was serenading the cafe today with their kazoos. It was ______. HAHAHA. Honestly, if you can't beat them, join them.

Channel 8 is showing some hardcore retro show and it's hilarious. Some serial drama that probably aired thousands of years ago. There was this scene that was supposedly scary with all the green lights + scary face shit that was SOOO BAD. Makes me think about how much teevee has evolved.

Thank God for better effects.

Hooray, no school tomorrow. I'm so gonna sleep my ass off.
Good night world.

2007-10-18T20:51:00.000+08:00

Go watch Freedom Writers, I love it.

Blades Of Glory was a bit disturbing.
2 male figure skaters together = gag.
Some of the moves made me shudder in disgust.

Okay back to watching movies online.

All my failings
Surely would have drowned me
But You made a way.

2007-10-12T21:03:00.000+08:00

Heroes is fantastically addictive!

I can just devour episode after episode, I tell you. I think that it's really awesome, the effects and all really make me wonder how cool it will be if we had some people around who could do stuff like regenerate, fly or be radioactive. But how scary that will be, because given the nature that we human beings are, our insatiable greed would create "Sylars" or some unstoppable evil force. So I'm contented (though I kinda still wish I could absorb powers like Peter Petrelli) and comforted in the fact that no one walks around with abilities that could possibly harm the rest of us normal beings.

On other matters, we're in the midst of getting our results, and I'm praying really, really hard that no one in our class would get retained. It would really break my heart to see any of you retain, it's bad enough that Yuting and Crystal are already gonna leave us to go to poly. Don't give up hope cause we still have unreleased results. We can do this.

Jesus, You're the reason.

2007-10-05T20:35:00.000+08:00

IT'S OVERRRRRRR!!

:D

2007-09-30T21:16:00.000+08:00

Rest ye merry.

Oh tian, brain-fried, brain-fried, brain-fried.
Sizzle as it drizzles.

Tomorrow:
To next year.
Or not.

It all hangs in the balance once more.

2007-09-29T17:33:00.000+08:00

I don't feel like my name at all.

So I have more 4 papers left to determine my fate.

I'm really damn, damn worried.
If I don't make it, it's bye-bye SAJC and hellooo Nowhere!
I must, must, must, must make it this time.

Come on, Serene!

God, I need an epiphany.

2007-09-25T17:18:00.000+08:00

Just went to FredFlare and I saw soooo many things that I want:

money bag, pretty useless but so good to stash stuff in.

fries coin pouch that looks so cute and yummy.

lunch box! i've always wanted one!

donut purse!

hahaha fast food tote. nice.

Okay there's just too much to upload here.
Time to head back to my notes! Trying to finish Econs by today!
I can't wait for mummy to get home!
She bought donuts from Donut Factory! Woohoo :D

Mugging is unhealthy.

2007-09-22T16:26:00.000+08:00

Sometimes it's so hard to see
that we are not alone in this..
I need to believe.

2007-09-19T22:08:00.000+08:00

Counting down the days.

I wish I could say that I'm feeling sanguine about the upcoming promos, but I can't. I have to say that my concerns and worries are valid, after all, if I don't make it, I'll be leaving SA. For good. It's scary, really. The mere thought of it really freaks me out, knowing that my future is hanging on the balance now.

The J2s are done with their prelims, and I heard they will graduate on 11 Oct. 22 more days before they are gone. I'm really dreading it.. I really don't think I can watch them leave.

i don't see where this is headed.
you might want to reconsider, seriously.

2007-09-17T18:14:00.000+08:00

A little spice makes everything nice.

You know, I really want to travel around the world and get a taste of what each country has to offer. If only someone would pay me to do that.. it would be a dream come true. I realized why I don't like to see people going on diets/health-conscious- I love to see people enjoying what they eat. Have you seen the look of a person who's just tasted something very delectable? It's this look of indescribable happiness of having something incredibly mouth-watering inside your mouth that makes you grin from ear to ear subconsciously. I love that look.

Anyway, I'm feeling very satisfied now! I finally got to eat what I've been craving for: Salmon sashimi on Saturday.. hot devil drumlets from KFC and Oreo McFlurry from Macs just now :D Thanks Rach for accompanying me to buy them!

Now I'm just waiting for mummy to buy chocolate chip cookies from Subway and my joy will be complete (: And I spy snow skin durian mooncakes from Goodwood Park Hotel in the fridge! Oh gosh, I'm getting very excited!

FFD tomorrow!

:D

2007-09-16T15:57:00.000+08:00

LOOK KOR, CUTE DOG!

Okay so I gotta really start saving if not everyone's gonna get nothing for Christmas. This is gonna be so hard. ARGHZXZXZXZXZX.

I went to Sakae with mummy yesterday for dinner. It was quite weird cause she isn't a fan of Japanese food. So I made her try salmon sashimi and she liked it! Darn, I wanted her to LOVE it like I do (so she will buy it home as often as I crave it i.e everyday). But I guess it's good enough she doesn't hate it.

I hope the weather's chilly tomorrow/the whole week/month/year cause we got our SA pullovers! WOOTS :D
Hahaha running after the bus and train, and scuttling around Orchard was damn fun! Yes yes?

Okay la bye.

2007-09-10T23:28:00.000+08:00

How fast can you say Colour Splash Holga 120CFN?

My uneven tan lines are horribly palpable. And I don't even tan!
Maybe that's why.

Ha! I remembered to align centre this time! :D

2007-09-08T15:37:00.000+08:00

Yoohoo, Ian's party was awesome!

Great food, awesome company :D

I think the highlight of the day was when Martin and Gus walked through the door. It was hilarious! Martin was wearing Rach's SCGS uniform and Gus was wearing SA's girls' uniform, and yes the skirt was very, very short. Gus was flaunting his legs like crazy la. It was utter madness I tell you.

Dinner was kinda like feeding frenzy, my tummy is happy happy from all the yummy yummy. After that Jia En and I were sneaking around Ian's room trying to find his non-existent diary. Jia En fell off the chair and it was so funny.

Cake-cutting and loud singing, lots of photo-taking. Ian, Becca, Sybs and I were pretending to be models.

Amelia and I have so much in common I'm kinda freaked.

I want a Colour Flash Holga 120CFN please (:

2007-09-06T22:06:00.000+08:00

Exclamation marks make me happy!!!!!

I got this off Threadless, and I couldn't stop laughing when my Big Brother Ben showed it to me.

It's so tragic but I think that's what's happening to me.
ARGHXZXZXZX, STUPID CUPID.

Ian's party is tomorrow, and I thought it was on Sat.
My taste buds are excited!
:D

Okay I have decided to blog like this.
Centre.
Centre.
Serene Centre.

2007-09-04T12:02:00.001+08:00

Okay so the last-post-til-after-promos thing didn't work out.

I'm eating a rice dumpling now, and I swear there's a damn weird tangy taste that doesn't taste quite right. So much for trying to eat something filling for breakfast so I won't eat so much at lunch later :(

Gonna meet my cell in a while, so.. toodles! I'll prolly be blogging soon again. Like after Ian's birthday party.

:D

2007-09-02T17:13:00.000+08:00

Heal my heart and make it clean
Open up my eyes to the things unseen
Show me how to love like you have loved me
Break my heart for what breaks yours
Everything I am for Your Kingdom's cause
As I walk from earth into eternity...

Hello whoever-is-reading!

Finally, after 2131568498754321847645134 days/months/years/forever, I went for my very overdue haircut! I'm so very HAIR-PY! :D

It's study break now, so I shall get my ass to mugging! This will, if all things go well and I'm able to fight off the impetuous urge to blog, be my last post til after my promos! For now, let's take a look at the week ahead (this strangely sounds like a weather forecast):

Monday: Back to school for Econs & Math
Tuesday: Cell outing, Tuition at 7pm
Wednesday: Mug-Day
Thursday: Mug-Day
Friday: Mug-Day
Saturday: Ian's Birthday Party!
Sunday: Mug-Day

Til after promos! (Though I foresee myself blogging some day next week hahaha)

:D

2007-08-28T17:24:00.000+08:00

skipping beats, blushing cheeks.

The funniest thing that happened today was how our class started walking around school in a choo-choo train. My gosh, people were staring at us in disbelief as we walked along corridors and it was so funny cause we were having so much fun we couldn't care less what they thought of our maturity level.

Meet the class! :D

Our favourite pastime: 'Tian Xia Wu Di!'

2007-08-26T22:29:00.000+08:00

And I finally understood why.

Thank You, Lord.

Help me to accept things I cannot change and overcome feelings that I cannot fight.

2007-08-23T21:29:00.000+08:00

Circular motions;

Hello!

PE never fails to get me all excited for school, you know! (: School's boring/dreadful with all that stress and endless piles of homework, so I decided to make myself look forward to something every day so life won't be so sad. Hahaha!

Monday: Roti Jala + PE Day!
Tuesday: Fried Food Day!
Wednesday: Lectures-are-not-so-bad + Roti Jala Day!
Thursday: PE Day!
Friday: Thank God It's Friday Day + Roti Jala Day!

Okay it looks quite stupid but honestly, it helps when you have something to look forward to! :D

Anyhoo, Geepee was rather fun today (well, at least at the start of it). We were supposed to read aloud random sentences in different tones (eg sarcastic, mocking, happy etc) and we were going a bit high doing all sorts of funny voices! Hahaha okay that was like the first time the class was noisy and responsive for Geepee. But unfortunately, all good things come to an end. It was shortlived. The moment lesson started on a proper note, a veil of silence fell upon the class. Energy levels which were soaring a few moments ago plunged, nosediving to an all-time low.

No more time to write crap, I gotta study now! Mug, Serene, mug!

2007-08-22T23:09:00.000+08:00

Lacking depth;

God, help me become a nicer person. Curb my temper, restrain my tongue from putting people down and remove the flaws that are ever so palpable.

feelings kept in a box,
left on the shelf.

2007-08-20T21:03:00.000+08:00

Deb and I went to Carrefour, bought $1.05 worth of longans, washed them in one of the toilets in Plaza Sing, and ate them in school. My gosh, washing them in the toilet was funny and awkward. The longans were yummy. We should do this more often.

FFD tomorrow :D

2007-08-19T23:40:00.000+08:00

It was all wishful thinking.

2007-08-16T22:00:00.000+08:00

Initiating Wallet Diet.......

.....

.....

.....

Failed.

:(

2007-08-15T19:45:00.000+08:00

rejection.

I wanted to donate blood today, but I couldn't.

Woman: (checks for my vein on my right arm) Uh, can't find. Give me your left arm.
Me: (lets her check my left arm)
Woman: Girl ah, your vein too small, the needle too big. Sorry ah, you cannot donate.
Me: HUH?!

I'm so disappointed leh, I really wanted to donate blood. See the cold needle going into my arm, the crimson blood flowing out of me to give life to another, and faint thereafter upon that sight.

do you know you're unlike any other?

2007-08-14T19:01:00.000+08:00

13 more days to prelims for the J2s, and soon they will be gone.

Looking through the pictures of my J2 class and my ODACers, I really can't hold back my tears, cause I know when they leave SA, things will be so, so different. I really can't imagine life without them next year.. I've been dreading this period ever since the moment I knew I would be repeating my J1 year. It's funny how I've been trying to cling on so desperately to something that I know will depart from me no matter how hard I try, and a part of me is still denying the fact that every single one of them whom I hold so dear to my heart will soon leave me and carry on with the next phase their lives. The girls will go off to uni, the guys will be entering army and their hair will be gone..

It's such a bittersweet thought.

i never thought it would be so hard;
i never knew it would hurt so much.

2007-08-13T21:31:00.000+08:00

Why do you have to be so cute?
It's impossible to ignore you.
Must you make me laugh so much?
It's bad enough we get along so well..

Say good night and go.

2007-08-12T17:38:00.000+08:00

Say 'No!' to laptop-hogging!

In the end, we didn't ear bar chor mee after cell yesterday, we ate maggi mee goreng instead! Wow, quite a different experience since we seem to perpetually eat bar chor mee only. So that was good, since I was craving for it. Joel bought chocolate tarts (omg chocolate tarts!) for cell, and I admit that I ate more than anyone else cause I are greedy, and I knoweth that full well :D

Okay so I'm feeling damn happy now cause the laptop is my room and finally, there's PRIVACY! :D But this happiness is gonna be short lived. Soon, my brother will storm my room and demand for it to be back in his room. NOOOO...! Maybe I should put up a fight or something. RAHH!

Oh and yesterday was retarded! Gaah I was supposed to go to Topshop to get my skinnies altered right, so I went before going to church for cell. When I walked in, guess what was playing? 'WALK IT OUT'! Omg the moment I heard it I almost burst out laughing cause images of Martin and Gus dancing and singing to it just rushed/gushed/flushed into my head, and I really walked it out of Topshop man. Okay class joke so I don't think you'd understand, but it was just so funny I had to leave if not I'll look like a lunatic laughing to myself.

Anyway. I bought donuts from Munchy's on my way home and I plan to bring them to school tomorrow. I hope they don't get squished along the way cause I was holding them so carefully the whole time if someone crashes into me and squashes them to a pulp, I think I will faint. And I hope they taste good cause they look good and I think I went a bit nuts cause I bought all the chocolate ones cause I love the way they look- chocolately happy :D

Oooh, a little randomness here, lunch at Sakae Sushi was gooooood! I want to eat salmon sashimi again. And again. And again.

Crazy Taxi is so fun! And addictive. Must. Stop. Playing.

I have run out of things to blog about. And I smell dinner.

Toodles!

it's impossible to ignore you.

2007-08-11T12:47:00.000+08:00

Wah, not efficient at all man.

Things to do:

1. Complete my incomplete and overdue essays.
2. Eat my lunch.
3. Head East.
4. Sleep during bus ride.
5. Don't miss my stop.
6. Run errands.
7. Go for cell.
8. Not distract the cell with Ellery.
9. Bubble Tea and Bar Chor Mee! (the weekly dose)
10. Head home, sleep.

:D

This is not productive at all. Oh God, help. I gotta get my ass moving or I'll die at promos. Again.

2007-08-10T15:11:00.000+08:00

Hello, I can eat chocolates the whole day.

I just realized that I'm a person with a liking for a myriad of things, many of which don't really belong to the same spectrum.

THAT SONG is stuck in my head.

Okay time to do my work, toodles! :D

2007-08-09T22:39:00.000+08:00

Fireworks, kids running around in sea creature outfits, patriotic songs..

Happy Birthday Singapore!

Oh yes, we won 2nd yesterday for the singing competition! :D And I love my wall dance. I should have my own music video, really. I'm so, so excited to go back to school on Monday! After I finish my work, revision, overdue lit essays. Yay for PE! :D

let me into your heart;

2007-08-05T22:29:00.000+08:00

Hi. I fell yesterday while playing basketball and scraped my knee.

Today was fun.
Hot, but fun.

The Besty and I went to Clarke Quay today to check out the Central mall. I like the fact that they have Chippy's! But nothing else much there yet. Gotta check it out again once everything has opened. Hopefully we can eat at some nice place there the next time! :D

Oh, I finally know where MOS is. Not slow at all what, Serene! But I'm a stay-at-home, not clubber girl, you see. Yes, movin' on.

I officially have a 24/7 craving for salmon sashimi.
I need salmon sashimi.
I need to have a haircut.
I need to start doing my work.
I need to save money.
I need to exercise.
I need to sleep, bye.

:D:D:D:D:D:D

2007-08-04T14:56:00.001+08:00

Online shopping is DA BOMBZXZXZ, apart from the fact that I'm on the edge of poverty.

I'm so excited for tomorrow, The Besty and I are going shopping!! Didn't I just mention that I'm on the edge of poverty? Maybe just window shopping/shopping for windows la.

So yesterday 9 of us A9ers went to watch Disturbia, and it was really er.. quite disturbing. I swear all serial killers are evil geniuses, and it's a scary thought. I never understood one part though, so what happened to that redhead from the club who 'never left'? If she 'never left', then who was the redhead that left the house impersonating her? Oh, confusing.

2007-08-02T20:19:00.000+08:00

your stomach's a black hole.

PE was 2 hours long today! :D

Okay can't blog much, I gotta mug for tomorrow' s H1 paper. Toodles! (:

scary bestfriends (:

2007-08-01T23:15:00.000+08:00

makes me wonder.

I did two essays today and I'm dead beat, but just let me say that I'm so proud of myself!

:D:D:D:D:D

PE (the only time I get to exercise of stepping down from ODAC) tomorrow! (: I think I need to like urm, get my ass on some exercising routine, cause I can just feel the un-fitness oozing out of me.

I found it!!!

2007-07-30T22:07:00.000+08:00

Purple pineapples dancing in the moonlight.

Hello, I'm trying to do my lit assignment.

For the past 20 minutes, I've been staring at the screen. Nothing. Nothing. Nothing! Gaaaah.

Okay I'm just going to crash now, I think it's more productive. My bro just bought like 5 Threadless tees! Ohmytian. I'm thinking of getting this, when I have the money. After all, I did spend a bit shopping online in the past week... :/

Hahaha, anyway, PE was great (as always) today! :) Apart from the fact that my heart starting pumping really fast and breathing got a bit labored after PE, just like the other time after ODAC. Strange, I really dunno what triggers it.

Time to say goodbye, kids! Take care and have fun.

2007-07-24T20:51:00.000+08:00

long-awaited;

Farewell was a lot of fun, eating, taking photos, chillin' and getting emo. Gosh I don't wanna start to get emo again, so let me keep it brief. Watching the J1s prepare for our farewell reminded me of how we prepared for our seniors last year, bbq-ing at Minqi's wearing our secondary school uniforms! Hahaha i still remember wearing the Cat High uniform. Man, time really flies. I can't believe it's over. Wednesdays and Fridays feel weird.. and empty without having any ODAC-related activities on.

Chasing Cars was the mother of all bombs! Thanks Zemin for opening up your home for us to destroy. Hahaha.

Rapture was so good man! But the place sucks like crazy. Wearing heels was a major mistake, thank God for Val the Crutch! (: Hahahaa.

Dinner on Sun at the Jap place in CHIJMES was awesome! Man, the beef was soooo good, and the dessert was so fun to make.

Rachel's 'birthday cake' was so funny- a waffle topped with 6 scoops of icecream, NICE!

Hahahaha okay I'm being so vague about everything, but I'm rushing you see. I need to do my work. See Val, I updated okay! Specially for you! Hahah talking with you on the way home just now was nice, I'm glad I met you on the way out of school! (: 'HAPPY!'

2007-07-21T15:23:00.000+08:00

Val Val, I promise to blog soon. For You I Will, Taipei!

HAHAHA okay so exciting, Rapture tonight! (:

2007-07-12T20:45:00.000+08:00

Failed Dreams & Rude Awakenings.

The day started out badbadbad:

1. I had only 5 hours of sleep (grumpyfrumpy).
2. In my excitedness/fatigue state, I brought everything for PE except my PE tee.
3. I almost sprained my ankle while walking to the MRT.
4. I had lit presentation first thing in the morning.
5. Amelia, who was in my lit group, was late.

And I honestly thought I was screwed for the day.

Hahaha, fortunately not!

I wasn't feeling really tired, though I secretly suspect I was actually running on my reserves cause nothing I said really made sense. Yuting lent me her PE tee. I didn't sprain my ankle. Lit presentation was postponed! So the negatives were neutralized by the positives, and it became uh.. pH 7?

So it's not that bad la. (: (: (:

PE was funfunfun, though it rainedrainedrained halfway. Oh, managed to get a D for H2 Lit (which was quite pleasant cause I'm really bad at Lit), hopefully H1 won't pull me down. Every H2 result seems to be taking forever to be released. GP was disastrous, I just made it- E. Baaah. Geog is a U.

Let's hope I get a DUDE, and not EEEU, cause DUDE sounds so much better.

Tomorrow's Hairy Potty Day after the SC thingy at SAC. Whoopydooo..! (:

Okay crap I just remembered that A&C assignment is due tomorrow. Gotta save my ass now, toodles!

and i wonder where your heart lies.

2007-07-12T00:14:00.000+08:00

Moons and violins.

Hahaha I'm so excited for PE, I dunno why! Okay this is so random.

PE PE PE PE PE PE :D

Oh, but there's lit presentation to get thru first, damn my bubble just burst. Hopefully we don't screw up. Hahaha. NICA vs SUWEN!

i like you the way you are.

2007-07-10T21:18:00.000+08:00

Hello! Hello! Hello!

and the question, once again, lies unanswered.

2007-07-08T21:49:00.000+08:00

Sometimes we really lose sight of the things that are of great importance; and I guess I've been distracted for far too long.

What Wendy spoke of today really struck a chord in my heart, and I've gotta admit that sometimes I've really lost sight of the one focus- God. I've come to realized that all the things that I've tried to do on my own have come to naught, and it's time to come back to the heart of worship..

2007-07-07T15:56:00.000+08:00

Amazing Race on Friday. A9 won $100 for getting 2nd place, nice one la! (:

2007-07-03T21:47:00.000+08:00

Hi, today is Klutz Day.

Go watch Transformers, it's good! (:

Okay so I've not been updating. Common Tests are over (woohoo!), but that also means the results are coming out soon. I think I'm gonna screw up, and I'm so scared of screwing up again. It doesn't look too good. God, please at least let Econs be good.

School's started and it still feels like the holidays, holidays that begin at 5.30am that is. It's back to the tie and books. I can feel my brain cells going on strike just about....now.

Wallet Diet commences tomorrow- $2/day, and I see myself deflating already.

envelopes stuffed with feelings found.

2007-06-28T09:51:00.000+08:00

Last paper today, and I better not be :( when I come home.

2007-06-26T22:03:00.001+08:00

Oh, this is so screwed. It's all going down the drain again.

God help me.

2007-06-23T11:43:00.000+08:00

Last night, I couldn't sleep because I had cold feet.

It was terrible! It was tormenting! For about an hour or so, there I was, tossing and turning in bed, exhausted but sleep would not come.

I couldn't stop thinking about it...

"Darn, I should have turned off the air-con earlier."

added at 2218:
Holey Cow. A bird pooed on my head just now. I've washed/scrubbed my hair so many times, I think I'm starting to bald. STUPID BIRD! I'm not gonna stand in the open anymore. Maybe.

2007-06-21T19:37:00.000+08:00

The Besty is back with Krispy Kreme, hooray! And I have to get back to studying geog -the readings are killing me, gaaah.

ps: I got my sashimi fix (:

2007-06-20T19:37:00.000+08:00

It doesn't make sense;

The journey to attain great wisdom to ace me Common Test is arduous.
The Besty is coming home tomorrow, hooray! (: I gotta tell her about my little plan, I'm so excited! Hohoho. My Friendster profile keeps dying on me. Damn, it keeps deleting the info I key it every few days.. It's so unfriendly.

Can someone buy me some salmon sashimi and deliver it to my home pretty please? I'm having a really bad (like a pregnant woman) craving for it. (nope, not gonna happen)

2007-06-17T16:38:00.000+08:00

Letters from under the pillow.

So the weekend wasn't too lonely. Had lunch at Sakae Sushi after service today with Adele, Mel, Austen and Derong. I think I'm developing a liking for salmon sashimi; Hana Maki is yummy!

Anyway, school's gonna reopen in a week's time. That means waking up at crazy times, tutorials and Common Tests. Oh well, at least I can look forward to the Tuesdays (fried food days, baby!) that I've missed rather badly (:

Tuesdays are Happy Days!

2007-06-15T14:31:00.000+08:00

Cotton wool for clouds.

So the Besty is away in Aussieland and I'm stuck here on the sunny island trying to study. Most of the churchies are away at church camp too, so this weekend I'll be a lonely pony.

Mugging awaits.

2007-06-14T12:57:00.000+08:00

Monday:
Kenny Rogers with Jonk, Ellery, Kenneth. I swear I've never eaten so much there. They have lousy straws, by the way. Either that or they're pop-proof, which really sucked cause we took so many straws and we were so disappointed when we realized they were unpoppable.

Candy Empire next, followed by the arcade! Woohoo, Daytona, Fake Basketball and DDR with Ellery. Hahaha I can't DDR for nuts la, I just kept laughing cause I didn't know what to do. Ellery has DDR potential; I secretly suspect he's done it many times before. Closet DDRer huh, Ellery!

Yesterday:
Seoul Garden with ODACers! (: Gosh we had so much fun la! Haha all the guys were taking the formal attire thing very seriously la, all decked out in collared shirts. But the girls were all leng leng la, wear anything also glam right Clarissa? So we 20 hungry people invaded Seoul Garden, sat down and owned the place. We all started taking ALOT of pictures despite our growling bellies, and were making so much noise that when we settled down, it was like quiet. Yeah, but that didn't last long la. We started eating, making more noise and taking more photos, eating somemore, and taking more photos. Did I mention that we kept taking photos?

We were all stuffed by the time we finished, and we all refused to leave the place. So what's there to do but take more photos! Hahaha so a bunch of us went to the toilet to take more random silly photos. I think we spent like half an hour in the toilet just doing that. My mouth almost cramped up from smiling so much la. We made our way back only to find the guys playing their usual loser-eats-the-gross-stuff game, and it was damn sick la. Ice-cream in soup with random pieces of meat and _____.

And the rest of the night was more photo-taking and fun! (:

Man I'm gonna miss all of them so much.. please say this won't be the last outing we have. I wish we could all stay together forever, and not have to part. I'm finding it so hard to let go of ODAC.. all the people, all the fun, the laughter, all the stressful times, all the sweat and tears, our highs and lows.. It's so hard to let go, and I don't want to let go.

And these are the moments,
These are the times,
Let's make the best out of our lives.

2007-06-10T22:01:00.000+08:00

With all my heart;

LTC's over. Our last activity as ODAC. I must say that I really, really enjoyed this camp though it was really quite mentally demanding. Challenging as it was, I'm sure we all grew and learnt a lot from this camp.

Group One consisted of Eeling (J2 Group Leader), Qi Hui (Group Advisor) and I (Group Advisor), Kelvin, Zemin, Joanne and Mark (:

Being an advisor has got to be the most rewarding position in this camp, and I'm sure all of the other advisors would agree with me. Initially, I was quite worried that I wouldn't do a good job cause I was worried that I would have nothing to say during advisor time with Zemin, but it turned out to be the opposite. I had so much to say that I exceeded the allocated time cause there was just so much to comment on. I really felt a sense of fulfillment seeing how Zemin took my feedback and changed through the camp. The pride in seeing someone that you're mentoring learn and gain something from you just cannot be expressed in words.

I'm really proud of all of us. Just seeing how all of us were giving feedback to the J1s really made me realize that we've grown so much together, after all we've been through.. all the activities and all the dry-runs.. It's just amazing how we work together so seamlessly, how our strengths complement one another.. We know that no matter what happens, we call fall back on each other.. It's just this faith we have in each other that allowed this camp went so smoothly. You can count on everyone to give their best.. It's amazing.

I think that the campfire was memorable, especially when we were finally Full Strength. Finally, all 24 of us gathered. I remember how we sang our hearts out during our performance (even though I didn't really know the lyrics for At The Beginning very well) and the group hug. Full Strength group hug; an embrace I never wanted to end. I'll really miss every single ODACer. I'll miss all the dry-runs, dinners, debriefs, outings, chilling sessions, rock-climbing, first aid course, 1-star kayaking, dragon-boating and everything. I don't think I can get use to not having any more ODAC activities. I don't think I can get use to not having you guys around.. Wednesdays and Fridays will be so different without having anything ODAC-related on. It's just weird, it's just this sense of loss that I think everyone will have problem coping with. I'm missing everything about ODAC already.

Time really flies. I remember how we were all strangers last year, and now, we're FAMILY. Guys we've been through so much together. All of you mean so much to me, words don't do justice. I love you guys with all my heart. All the moments we spent together will be etched in my heart forever.. ODAC WILL ALWAYS BE FAMILY. Leng leng ah.

We were strangers starting out on a journey
Never dreaming what we'd have to go through
Now here we are, and I'm suddenly standing
At the beginning with you

No one told me I was going to find you
Unexpected, what you did to my heart
When I lost hope, you were there to remind me
This is the start

And life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever, wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you

We were strangers on a crazy adventure
Never dreaming how our dreams would come true
Now here we stand, unafraid of the future
At the beginning with you

And life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever, wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you

Knew there was somebody somewhere
Like me, alone in the dark
Now I know my dream will live on
I've been waiting so long
Nothing is going to tear us apart

And life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
Life is a road now and forever, wonderful journey
I'll be there when the world stops turning
I'll be there when the storm is through
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning with you

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing on
Starting out on a journey

Life is a road and I wanna keep going
Love is a river I wanna keep flowing
In the end I want to be standing
At the beginning
With you....

-At The Beginning

SAINTS ODAC 06/07

2007-06-06T22:32:00.000+08:00

Rich Crimson.

Today was Gore Day.

I watched Final Destination, Saw and Battle Royale. Nice one la. I think Saw's the best. The twist is really damn damn good. I wanna watch Saw 2 & 3! I can join Amelia the Gore Girl already.

LTC's tomorrow, blog more when I return!

keep your fingers crossed.

2007-06-05T12:03:00.000+08:00

The final straw.

Saturday Night:
Stealing straws from drink stores and Macs, rolling over with laughter when we saw straw dispensers as if we struck gold and going mad popping them. Such are the little joys in life. Hahaha let's do it again next Sat night pretty please?

I got my black love (:

2007-06-01T13:36:00.000+08:00

The Red Alien.

Something bright and sunshiney for the rainy day!

Tuition's over, lunch has been eaten, and it's time to ~~slack~~ mug! But before that, how 'bout some milo and biscuits. Oh, Serene, Serene!

gotta stop, gotta gotta stop
before it's too late.

2007-05-31T15:18:00.000+08:00

Hullo, I should be studying.

That was what I told myself today, yesterday, and the day before, and the day before, and the day before..

It's not working.

But I promise to study tomorrow. Or maybe tonight, if the weather is good. I gotta get that Lit assignment done before the week ends man. LTC next week. Omg, camps are a love/hate affair. I hate packing, missing my bed and bathing in icy cold water. Water heaters are the greatest invention, I tell you. Life would be so cold without the warmth it brings..

Tuition again tomorrow, gotta get 'em functions functioning! Before I go, a random photo! Look at me trying to make up for the height difference. Hahaha.

Mel & I (:

2007-05-30T22:30:00.000+08:00

let it go.. let it be.
don't waste all your emotion
on this tit-for-tat machine..

2007-05-29T22:20:00.000+08:00

A dying trade;

Watched Pirates with the class (okay about 10 of us) at Plaza Sing yesterday; booking tickets online is so cool worZxZxZx. Just flash your (friend's mum's) card and collect 'em tickets and watch the people in the queue look at you in awe. Hoho. Riight.

The show was alright, but not up to my expectations, so that's quite sad. Thankfully the company was good! (: We squeezed 11 people to fit 10 seats! Nice one la.

Went to the pasar malam just now. I miss the atmosphere the night markets used to have in the past.. I miss the excitement I remember having as a child.. wandering from stall to stall checking all the fancy toys and stickers and savouring the pasar malam fare. Now, it's just nothing.. No more hype it had 10 years ago.. I really miss it all. The food don't even taste as good. Emo-mo aside, I found the lady who sells yummy Ramly Burgers! Aha, that's something to look forward to this week! I remember her from the very first time I bought one of her burgers from the Toa Payoh pasar malam, and seeing her at a Clementi one. Now, she's here!

(:

2007-05-27T19:25:00.000+08:00

old skool, yo!

Hello, I'm listening to Spice Girls now and it sure can't get any cooler. It's back to those good ol' days in primary school.

Next up, Backstreet Boys, N'Sync and some Hit Me Baby One More Time.

(:

Valerie loves Serene! (: Okay la, Val, I love you too!

2007-05-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

It's not about winning, but how we play like winners.

We've seen how you guys have trained and played your hearts out, and though we've lost matches, don't give up cause SAJC will always be behind you!

GO TEAM SAJC; UP AND ON! (:

2007-05-23T22:18:00.000+08:00

And she said,

Not now, ~~not ever~~ for now.

Okay so I'm playing online games now, when I'm supposed to be doing my lit assignment. The weather is honestly nuts. Mr Sun was happily frying everyone under him today manZxZxZxZx! I should invent a fridge for people to walk around in. Hmmm. The makings of a millionaire.

Yay, PE tomorrow! (:

2007-05-22T19:25:00.000+08:00

Maybe it's the warmer climate.

Make up your mind, Weather.
Stop blowing hot and cold.

One moment it's insanely hot, and before you know it, it starts to rain. Siao ahhhhh. Hot, cold, hot, cold. If I start to weather, blame the freeze-thaw manZxZxZx.

Oh and the thing about my tooth? Yeah, it wasn't chipped. It was a freaking cavity (i.e decay) that left a crater in my molar. Damn, 1/4 of a tooth decayed. Nice one la. The dentist gave me two jabs in my gums before filling the pit. I almost bit her finger off when I squirmed in pain. I swear she has something against me. I'm gonna blind her with my Pearlie Whites when I go back for Torture II; she shall not triumph! Muahaha.

as if you have a choice.

2007-05-17T20:49:00.001+08:00

Green ears, sharp tooth.

Yay, Thursday is over. I don't like Thursdays cause it's tutorials-day. Went to Macs with Martin and Joshua to talk nonsense/chill. Joshua is so damn drama-mama, he should be in Drama la! Gosh, we spent the entire time laughing and talking nonsense. Those two are super entertaining. We ate sugar and bought the Shrek hairband thing. Hahaha, it's so cute.

Gaah I just realized that one of my molars (that's the name of those teeth at the black right?) is weird. It's damn sharp and it's hurting the side of my mouth. I think some part chipped off leh. I'm gonna have it extracted. Ahh!

Joshua acting emo.

Go green!

2007-05-12T14:40:00.000+08:00

Blue cows on the horizon.

The weather is nasty. Hot hot hot, humid. Gaahhhh, Antarctica seems like a good place to go to right now. Escapo the heato!

Okay, today's just weird.

It's the first Saturday that I have nothing on. Nothing's good to watch on teevee so I guess I'll be playing online games till I rot a thousand times over.

SAJC Band got Gold w/Honours! (: I'm so happy for them!

and what if?

2007-05-09T21:49:00.000+08:00

Ah, what a pleasant surprise!

A lizard fell on my head when I bathing just now.

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH...! Stupid lizard! Damn cold-blooded yucky icky disgusting crawling reptile, how dare you fall on my head!

Angrily, I flushed it down the toilet.

Anyway, the past few days have been quite fruitful. Eat, study, stone, eat, stone, eat, stone, study. Not bad, but I haven't done any work. I'm trying to do 'em tutorials, but my arm's always on strike when I try to start. So, getting nowhere there.

Away from me, Procrastination!

(I'm trying to start all my sentences with As but it's not working.)

My new bag, supposedly a present from my bro (but he hasn't paid me yet), is making me look demure! Oh, I'm so ladylike, hooray! The plan is working.

(:

2007-05-04T21:48:00.000+08:00

How do you keep someone in suspense?

OEC over,
List of selected J1s out.
(:

Stuffing our faces with sushi at Sakae Buffet,
Stashing the handroll I couldn't finish into a plastic bag,
Staggering out (gravity, or the weight in our tummies?), laughing ourselves silly,
We're swearing off sushi for a month (or so I say).

Fa la la la la.

ODAC celebration was fun today! (: Went to buy food for them and stuffed my face with all that junk. I can feel the oil welling up in the depths of my being. Gah what the heck, as long as it my taste buddies are happy.

I'll tell you tomorrow.

2007-04-27T00:16:00.000+08:00

Taking comfort for granted;

hello OEC,
bye bye sleep.

:(

Come on ODACers, we can do this!

touch your nose
and smell your toes.

2007-04-24T22:20:00.000+08:00

Procrastination, away from me!

Deborah and I are the new attractions in the library's 'aquarium'. We were distracting the MSP people during our GeePee class, but it was so fun we couldn't help it (:

I'm trying to make Martin feel horrid about getting Deb and my birth dates (same day) wrong, but it's not working. Fei zai, must guilt rest upon your fat-laden heart! HOHO.

Oh, birthday was fun this year! I turned the tables on the ODAC prank, hahaha. I pretended to act angry and left. But they ran after me and got me back to sabo Ziyi and I la. Thank goodness Ziyi shares the same birthday, God knows what they would do to me if I was alone. Did a lot of random stuff with Odacers and churchies, too many to list, too lazy to type. I just wanna say how thankful I am for all of you guys! Love love (:

I need to do work, work, work and study, study, study. OEC is starting this Friday!

chocolate overdose,
imminent breakout
of pimpin' pimples.

2007-04-21T21:50:00.000+08:00

Eighteen.

18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18!
18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18 18!

Almost twenty, almost old.
Oh, my youth!

2007-04-19T22:01:00.000+08:00

150 on the dot.

Sports day tomorrow.
10 by 200m!

My thigh is aching mad.

superman forgot his underwear.

2007-04-15T21:42:00.000+08:00

The Phantom of The Opera.

You have to watch it before you die because it's darn awesome. The singing, the seamless transitions, the fantabulous orchestra, the larger-than-life props.. It's mind-blowing. Pricey, but I assure you it is money well spent. It's like the show I'll never forget watching.

Go watch it! (:

Good news! I'm officially debt free, but am broke beyond my wildest imaginations.
Time to start saving!

Text twist is super addictive, and so is Heroes. I just started watching it today (okay I know I'm damn lag) and it's super kool (:

every waking moment.

2007-04-06T13:25:00.000+08:00

Hunger pangs and cravings.

No lunch, and I'm starving.

No one's at home to cook/buy lunch for me, so I've reduced myself to eating the Hello Kitty kiddy cup noodles that besty got for me from Hong Kong. I swear it looks much better than it tastes, but I shall not complain, lest I curl up with gastric pains. I want soft shell crab sushi!

Got the news yesterday that I'm longer the Logistics I/C for OEC, but the Assistant I/C for the camp. I've come to accept it, but I still have mixed feelings about it.

I finally got the photos that we took at Orchard Rd from Neil! (: They're a tiny bit tiny, but nice!
I miss you guys, meet up soon ok!

you're still the one,
after all this while.

2007-04-01T19:28:00.000+08:00

As much as I want to;

I will be here,
For you.

some things are better left unsaid.

2007-03-29T21:04:00.000+08:00

Prancing cows.

I closed my eyes and knocked out, only to wake up to find myself 2 stops away from home after some guy knocked his bag into my leg (thank God for that if not I would have slept my way to the other end of Singapore). I was knocked out for thirty minutes straight, from the moment I shut my eyes. The fatigue from insufficient sleep is snowballing, and today's PE, which was really damn PE (physically exhausting), is making me feel nothing but utter lassitude. And it is the fruit of my indolence- the absolute reluctance to go train up myself physically.

Highlights of my tomorrow:
1. H1 Math Lecture Test
2. ODAC Orientation

Back to revision.

i will be here for you.
will you be here for me?

2007-03-28T22:51:00.000+08:00

Light up;

My eyebags are gonna be big enough to fit my school stuff soon, if this keeps up. The rest of this week promises more ODAC- orientation for the (feels weird saying this) j1s and trip to beloved Ubin. Tireeeeeeeeeeed!

I have a compulsive pen-spinning disorder. Hoho! (:

Rest ye merry, world!

be happy.
that's all i ask of you.

2007-03-26T20:42:00.000+08:00

Greyscale.

There's a monster in my washing machine! I swear the thing has gone mad. It makes weird noises and jerks about like some medieval creature is fighting to emerge from within.

I got soaked again in the morning.

Fay, Carin 'Chinagirl' Lee and I went mad in the cafe telling jokes again.

PE makes me wanna pee. Mr Louis Ho is my PE teacher again! (: And She-who-cares-for-Deborah is back (to my utmost horror). My class is scattered for GP and we all hate it cause we got mixed with the sci fac peeps!

----

It's only by your blood I am saved
Your power washed away the stains that blemished me
How can I even start to repay
The price you paid at Calvary, you paid for me

How can I deserve this love
What can I do that's enough

If I could shout one thing to the world, it would be to know you
If I could give my life to a cause, it would be for you
If I had just one reason to testify, it would be about the way you set me free

You set me free..

-Set Me Free by Paradise Live.

hide,
don't say a word.

2007-03-25T15:24:00.000+08:00

Hello.

The heat is killing me and I'm finding it hard to chill (pun intended). Tuition in a hour's time.

jason: harro! hahaha it was damn funny lah, but at least we had an umbrella! (:

added 6:53pm,
Tuition is over, and I wonder if relief is the right word, cause I just realized the full extent of how atrocious my math is.

Calvin shared about being diligent during service today, and revelation came upon me. Sounds a bit of an exaggeration, but really, it dawned upon me that I'm the antithesis of diligence. I've never studied hard for my entire life, and change must take place ~~this year~~ now.

time will tell.
right now, just wait and see.

2007-03-21T20:42:00.000+08:00

How To Present Successfully

To calm your nerves,
1. Look at your audience
2. Pretend they are all rocks (yes, rocks)

Now, if you're on stage, the lights are on you and you're talking to rocks, what does that make you?

A Rockstar! Now, go on and steal the show! :D

2007-03-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

Oh Seven Aye Nine.

Yeah I got my subject combi- Geog, Econs & Lit (GEL)! (:

A9 sounds.. funny. But nice (:

Anyway, there are 11 Arts classes this year. I think it's nuts. We only had 8 last year. Looks like Arts Fac will invade the Sci Fac territory in the CC during Friday assembly (: We're spilling over from the balcony!

I hate it when it rains and my shoes get soaked, and I have to walk around with the superyuckyickysquishy feeling. And getting soaked on one side only. HAHAHA.

(:

2007-03-18T23:09:00.000+08:00

in all times and seasons;

Nice one, Va-neh-neh! (: Oh we're so cool in our hoods. HAHAHAHA.

Stomp(ed) The Yard with besty at Marina Square; a no-plot movie with awesome dancing.

The Return Of To The School premieres at all education institutions tomorrow. Hello eyebags and drag-me-out-of-bed mornings, Goodbye sleep-all-you-want days :(

unfailing love sets me free.

2007-03-15T14:43:00.000+08:00

The weight is lifted.

Hello! (:

Ignite Conference has once again been an awesome time -the gathering of youths from various churches and diverse backgrounds in a place where we can all worship God and have a great time learning more about Him is always a blessing (:

I've never missed a single Ignite, and every year, it really gets better. Seeing young people being set free, impacted by Jesus, getting excited about God, and worshiping the Almighty with such passion and fervour really allows you to see the hand of God working mightily in the young people of Singapore. He has really set our hearts on fire for Him. Praise the Lord!

Just 2 random shots before the night concert..

You alone are great in power,
You alone are my strong tower
and I will lift my heart and soul
to worship You alone..

2007-03-10T12:18:00.000+08:00

My third Orientation this time round, and it was the best one! (: I never had so much fun in the last two, prolly cause the first was awkward and I wasn't really there for the second one.

I got sabo-ed into being one of the nine Kingdom Warriors for Saverdo (yeah, arts fac rocks yer science fac socks). We looked damn cool with our painted faces. Finale Night was awesome, esp during the cheering competitions. I keep replaying the part when we went '5, 6, 7, 8! Pump! Pump! Pump it up! Pump Saverdo spirit up!' in my head. That was like the let-it-all-out part man. Hahaha I went damn, damn high. It felt so awesome.

Saverdo won Best Cheers and Best Kingdom, yo! (: We were all so happy la, esp the arts fac OGLs. Great job, SC!

i wanted you to know.

2007-03-05T22:26:00.000+08:00

PAE 07A1 Curry Puffs,

Today is our last day as a class, and I just wanna say that you guys have made this 1st intake extremely enjoyable for me.. Being a retainee is damn sucky, but you guys have made it so much more bearable (: You guys have been really accepting, and it's amazing how bonded we are even though we are the rojak combination class! I will miss all those times we skipped lectures together, talked nonsense during chinese class with kuang lao shi, sat outside the geog room cause we didn't do tutorials, ate beef fried rice on tuesdays (fried food days rock, yo!) and how much PE rocks cause we're so damn good. Hahaha. I've had so much fun with all of you.. I won't forget the times we spent as 07A1. I love all of you with all my heart, and though I wish we would never be separated, we all have our own lives to lead, and I really hope you will all find joy in whichever jc/poly/class you go to (:

Cheesy, and I bet you've heard it a thousand times before, but the words pretty much sum up what I wanna say:

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together.
And as our lives change, from whatever,
We will still be, friends forever.

P.S: Looking forward to our class chalet! (: I will try my very best to be there! All the best for posting results (:

2007-03-04T21:13:00.000+08:00

One hundred and ten doRRars.

My bro looks funny without his specs. And I can't stop laughing (discreetly).

HAHAHAHAHA!

Derong bought tickets to The Phantom of The Opera already, so we're all going on Friday the 13th, yo. I'm so excited I'm jumping in my seat! (: But the thought of how much the ticket is, slowly wipes the smile off my face. Nonetheless, I'm looking forward to it. Gotta cut down on spending this few weeks, watch me attempt to do the impossible: Eat Less During Breaks.

(:

all these thoughts locked inside.

2007-03-03T23:30:00.000+08:00

as if you have a choice;

Had lunch at Sakae Sushi with Wendy, and today was my second time dining in there. I'm not a big fan of Japanese cuisine, you see. But as of today, I am! Though I'm still not a sashimi convert. And oh, today's the first time I've tasted soft shell crab (why do I sound so deprived?), it's yummy! Anyone wanna go for the buffet? (:

My bro (the vain one) has gotten contact lenses! Hahaha, finally, he has joined his sister (the wise one) in Project Pretend-You-Have-Perfect-Eyesight. Hooray, join the club!

i wanted you to know
i love the way you laugh..
i missed the chance
and it's too late now.

2007-02-26T22:20:00.000+08:00

Swirling skies.

I said 'Bye bye' to the Bus Uncle/Driver when I was boarding a bus yesterday. He gave me a weird look (I swear he thought I was some nutcase). It was purely unintentional; I didn't know what I was doing, really. I wanted to say bye to besty but ended up confusing myself cause I was asking him if the bus was headed to my destination and I had a dozen things going through my head at the same time.

I. Was. So. Embarrassed. Yes, the people on board saw and heard me.

---------

You wait, wanting this world
To let you in
And you stand there
A frozen light
In dark and empty streets

You smile, hiding behind
A God-given face
But I know you're so much more
Everything they ignore
Is all that I need to believe

You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in

I wish
Wishing for you to find your way
And I'll hold on for all you need
That's all we need to say
I'll take my chances while
You take your time with
This game you play
But I can't control your soul
You need to let me know
You leaving or you gonna stay

You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in

There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to do without
The only way to feel again
Is let love in

There's nothing we can do about
The things we have to live without
The only way to see again
Is let love in

You're the only one I ever believed in
The answer that could never be found
The moment you decided to let love in
Now I'm banging on the door of an angel
The end of fear is where we begin
The moment we decided to let love in

-Let Love In by Goo Goo Dolls.

2007-02-21T21:13:00.000+08:00

And there I sat at the empty bus stop once more; the same place I was, waiting for my bus, on Valentine's Day. The night put the brakes on bustling activities, people walking across the road wore a solemn expression and all the noise was blocked out by the song that was playing in my head. I looked up into the night sky and pictured a lonely moon hanging against the dark sky, the clouds distant from it. It was lonely, and so was I.

where's my hero
when i need him?

2007-02-20T11:33:00.000+08:00

Easy peas, moo.

Hello hello. The way today started was so ______.
I woke up to the sound of guests arriving at my home. Oh my tian.

I couldn't go to the bathroom to bathe cause I would have to greet them, and there was no way I was going to meet them in such an unglam manner-hair dishevelled and still in bed clothes. In the end I just put on my contacts and sat on my bed for the longest time until my bro (who also woke up after they arrived) was done bathing. My mum had to come and bring me out of my room cause I was just too paiseh to go out. Hahaha it's damn stupid can. Gaah so I greeted them in my unglam state lor. Sucks, sucks, sucks :( They left while I was bathing.

and what i feel inside,
you'll never know.
you'll never know.

2007-02-19T21:12:00.000+08:00

All things red.

Gong Xi Fa Cai, people!

Yeah, it's the lunar new year, and I'm happy (: Let's see, so I had my Reunion Dinner at my uncle's place, as always, and I was so looking forward to see Jason but he didn't show up! He was stuck at his grandma's place, being miserable cause he ate and was still hungry. I was quite sad okay. I was so excited to see him again and talk to him, and possibly cook for him (hahaha it's the annual steamboat and bbq), but he wasn't there. But I, The Great Cousin, shall pardon him. Hahaha.

Right. So on the first day, I went to my aunt's place first and got to see so many kids! My cousins' kids are so adorable! Kendrick has the cutest 'blur' face and Brandon is so tiny and smiley. He's only like 4 months old and he keeps smiling (x I wanted to bring him home! Joyce is still so sweet.. she's grown taller, and still as shy as ever. Bryan is still so boyish and mischievous! Trying to be a big 'kor kor' to the younger ones. Hahaha. Cheryl is a big girl now. She's in primary 6, and she's so mature, being the oldest of the kids. I remember how I used to help 'take care' of her when she was still a baby, and we used to play a lot together when we were younger. Okay, when I was much younger. Hahaha.

Finally, I got to see Jason at my uncle's place! And being the nice cousin, I made him cook for me. Hahaha, so much for being nice (: See you soon, cousin! Take more photos next time, cuckoo choo!

I love visiting relatives; seeing them after so long is always a pleasure! Got to see my uncles and aunts (: I haven't seen them in the longest time, really. I love the festive cheer, though it used to be so much better a few years back! Nonetheless, the food and ang baos make up for it!

we're so close,
but we're so far away..

2007-02-17T16:48:00.000+08:00

What if?

Yesterday while walking out from school to the bus stop, I walked past this cute guy and made brief eye contact with him. I must have caught his eye cause this damn cute guy came up to talk to me! Quite a first, I must say. Hahaha. Seeing my shoe bag, he asked if I was from track & field. Politely, I told him no, and said I was from ODAC. He told me he was from rugby and we walked to the bus stop together. I asked if he was heading home and I found out that we were gonna take the same bus! So we ended up talking about random stuff and I found out that he plays Need For Speed too! You know what, he likes Cookie Monster too! Quite a bit in common, I must say (:

It was nice to have some company (: Oh by the way, he's in primary four this year. HAHAHA. You thought what! J1/2 ah? Hahahahaha joke sia.

He's a very cute boy la, chubby chubby one. Too bad he's waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay too young. Hahaha. Apparently, he wants to go to SAJC in the future, so that's cool. I'll be his super senior then.

We had the Yu Shen thingie, just for ODAC, after the celebrations. 07A1 won third for the Project Ang Bao Runway! Nice. Damn fun la (:

I'm excited about Reunion Dinner tonight! Okay, I'm gonna eat a lot later. Can see my cousins again! Jason, I'm excited to seeee you, you better be reading this!! Hahaha gonna watch some TeeVee now! Later, people!

it's been so long,
and sometimes i wonder:
do i still feel the same?

2007-02-14T23:29:00.000+08:00

lonely hearts club.

Valentine's Day is such a depressing day. You see couples everywhere you go, whispering sweet-nothings to each other, showering one another with love and gifts. Dateless, we, the (newly formed) Lonely Hearts Club went to have our sad Singles' Dinner at that Thai place near school where we were damn certain we wouldn't see any couples around. And we didn't, which was good, but Ziyi and I were going a bit mad/sad. Ahhh.. seven lonely hearts gathered together. Emo man.

When I boarded the bus, it was so empty and lonely. Where had all the people gone? And I remembered.. Valentine's Day. I just sat there, alone, and stared into space. I looked at the empty seat beside me and wished you were beside me. Walking home, it felt so surreal. It's as if all I could see were couples and more couples. Why weren't there any individuals around? And I remembered.. Valentine's Day. I just walked in a daze, alone. I look at the empty spot beside me and wished you were beside me.

I wish you were here.
I wish you knew,
but what good would that do?
Your heart.. your heart..
It isn't mine.

I wish you love tonight,
and I hope you know
that someone out there
wants you to be happy.

2007-02-13T23:06:00.000+08:00

What happens next?

What Wendy said on Sunday was so true.

It's hard to tell whether I'm feeling okay because I don't say/show what I'm really feeling inside. I hate to admit this but I know I always hide what I really feel, try to be happy and hope the sadness and problems go away. You can't really tell if I'm okay, can you? Unless I start to emo when something triggers it.

~~Sometimes it's a struggle to face people in school. It sucks to be a retainee. It really,really sucks. I'm okay, but why do I feel so sad?~~

I need to overcome this. I need to get things right with God.

and sometimes i wonder,
can you hear my heart pounding
when i'm next to you?

2007-02-12T12:12:00.000+08:00

It ends tonight.

No school today and tomorrow.
Yayy but sian. I don't know what to do at home.
I've been stoning for the past few hours.

Yes I'm supposed to be working on the 300 word write-up on CCA Teambuilding Day, but I'm clueless about how to go about doing it. I'm not much of a writer you know. Oh, I need to get inspired!

I have to pop by school for an OEC meeting with Mr Lam later. Gaah. So much for the 2 day break. Maybe I should crash 06A7's PE before going for the meeting (: Hahah see how la.

Woke up at eight plus this morning cause someone called me! Haiyer, disturb my sleep only. Tsktsktsk. Jason ah, late for school! HAHAHAHA.

Yay lunch is gonna be instant mee, 3 fishballs and 3 sotong balls cause I dunno what to eat. Mummy's taken half the day off so she's gonna cook it when she comes home. She thought it was strange. But I have a craving for it. Lalala.

Okay, time to stop stoning, and do uh, something.. productive.

let love in.

2007-02-11T22:29:00.000+08:00

think happy thoughts.

Saturday's recce wasn't that bad. Thank God it wasn't muddy! (: My shoes were so happy to be clean this time round, they actually jumped for joy! Hahaha okay random. I saw my Cookie Monster again and took a photo with him! Yayy. It's so cute, I'm wanna bring him home and put him in front of my house. (By the way, Cookie Monster is located near Murai Hut, so go visit him! He looks lonely! If you're nice, he'll let you have a bite of his cookie.) HAHAHAHA (:

JonE was being nice today. He gave some girls flowers, and I got a sunflower (which is with besty now cause she stole it, hahahaha. i forgot to take it back from her la)! Yay. Not bad eh? Sunflower leh. I love sunflowers, they're so pretty and cheery! (: Thanks, JonE!

Went to city hall with besty to help her shop for CNY clothes. Saw alot of stuff that I wanna get but can't cause I HAVE TO SAVE. Serene has to save money so that her account won't be so miserable with that measly amount of money left. Yeah, onward scrimping-saving! Dinner at Thai Express was yummy (and spicy)! (:

I almost missed my stop just now. I usually wake up between stops, but today I past 3 without waking up! My tian. I only woke up when the train doors opened, and was still in a daze before realizing that I was supposed to alight. I dropped my mp3 while scrabbling out and people were staring :(

i miss you,
and i can't wait
to see you again.